This week has been one in which I’ve had to choose trust again and again. Do I trust that God is going to come through for me? Do I trust that He knows what’s best and whatever ends up happening is going to work for good? It’s been kind of scary, if I’m honest. I start to think too much, and then anxiety starts taking hold, and then I start ignoring all my problems in an effort to make the anxiety go away, but then I start thinking and then the whole blasted cycle repeats itself. It’s been important to remember that trust is a choice, not a feeling; whether or not I know what’s going to happen, I made the decision to trust and I know that whatever happens, it’ll be ok. Even if something happens that prevents me from launching on the Race, I know that God has something hand-picked for me to do, something He wants me to do, and no one else.
Here’s a poem I wrote yesterday in Prayer Room at church:
He beckons me with open arms
And offers to hold my hand.
But what can I give Him?
All I have to offer is hunger,
My thirst for His love.
Desire overwhelms me
And I ask, “Is that ok?”
His gaze touches my soul
As He says “Of course,
That’s all I’ve ever wanted,
Someone to love me passionately,
Someone who wants Me.”
I take His hand slowly,
And He asks,
“May I have this dance?”
What a beautiful poem. I’m praying for you as you fundraise…may your faith grow leaps and bounds at His provision. Love you!
beautiful words claire! so excited to do life with you 🙂
beautifully written and beautifully open hands. proud of you
I absolutely love good poems, and this one is no exception. I pray that everything works out, even if it’s not exactly how you picture it.
Love your poem, Claire, and I love what Jesus is doing in your heart and life, even though I’m feeling like He suddenly pulled the rug out from under me!
I’ve learned so much the last few days from watching the launch sessions for parents. They were phenomenal.
Cheering you on!
It is such a joy to go back and read some of your squads blogs from before lunch. But yours is most impressive to me to us at this time. He stepped out in faith and waited for God to answer. He came in just in time, because that’s how he is. You have great faith Claire. Walk in the face step-by-step every day and he will continue to show you love peace and joy! We are so glad to have gone to training camp. Meeting you and now reading more about you we feel like we get to know you better and better.
We love you and can’t wait to hear more!
Your coaches