Hey folks! A lot has been happening recently; two weeks ago tomorrow my squad found out that due to the fact that we had been exposed to covid, and that several of our squad mates had contracted it (myself included), the rest of the semester would go virtual and that we will not be together as a squad till launch in January. The craziness of it all really got to me, and the first few days were really difficult with processing and trying to grieve in a healthy way. Through it all, a question keeps coming back to me: is God enough?
Back in October I wrote a blog titled “When God Has to Be Enough” (go and read it for more context!); I’d been prompted by a lot of hard things that had happened at the time. A lot of them were things that were physically difficult, and that was a period of learning to trust God even when I’m so physically exhausted I can’t move forward. The last two weeks have been a time of learning to trust Him even when spiritually and emotionally nothing makes sense and I feel alone. It’s still hard at times, especially being separated from my squad and knowing that there’s nothing I can do to change that. He’s still been there for me; the same God that spoke to me in Gainesville is here in my room, He’s with me at the grocery store, He’s present during family dinners. Nothing can change the fact that He chose me and He’s here to stay, no matter where I am.
Now I’m in a season of learning to bring Kingdom even at home, seeking Him and listening to Him right where I’m at. It’s different, and difficult in new ways than it was back on campus. But I’m excited to rest in His presence, see Him work in new ways, reconnect with family and friends, and pack and prepare for launch (properly this time; last time I only had 24 hours).
Until next time,
Claire
Enjoy your time of rest and restoration. A little detour might have unexpected joy. Welcome back to Minnesota!
really really proud of what you’re digging into through this season. your trust in the Lord is a reminder of how good He is beyond what any circumstance can dictate!