and, not but

  a big theme of the Race, and now CGA, has been changing my language, the words i use everyday, from words that speak death to words that speak life. that often meant saying “i feel tired” or “i feel sad” instead of “i am tired” and “i am sad.” the words we say carry weight and impact, not just to others but to ourselves, as well. 

  

  one of the most prevalent words i’ve had to change was but. instead of saying “God is good, but this is hard” i learned (and still am learning) to say “God is good, and this is hard.” 

 

“i love you and our relationship needs work.” 

 

“the Lord is a provider and i don’t see His provision yet.”

 

“Abba is my comfort and i’m holding a lot of sorrow.”

 

“joy comes in the morning and weeping endures all night.”

 

“i said yes to this and i have doubts.”

 

  it’s learning to sit in the tension of “yes, but not yet.” it’s “on earth as it is in heaven” and still being on this side of heaven. it’s learning to hold celebration and grief at the same time. it’s rejoicing in the abundance of the Lord and wondering if you can buy groceries next week. it’s knowing who you are as a son or daughter of the Most High and knowing how much refining you have left to walk fully in your identity. 

 

 

 

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